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It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything, so here we are.

Had a meeting with my principal today to talk about this past year and this coming year.  It went well.  Just a couple things I need to work on, mostly not being a smart ass every once and a while.
Almost every day I’ll say something and maybe include a gesture that I shouldn’t.  About 5 seconds after I’ll wonder why the hell I did such a thing.  I don’t know if I’ve ever come up with a reason other than wanting to show how smart I am at the expense of others.
This especially happens with Em…so sorry Em!

Towards the end of last year I decided that if I could not teach without the aide of drugs I didn’t want to do it at all.  I survived the last couple of weeks without drugs and the summer of huge ups and downs (engaged to a wonderful gal vs. that wonderful gal’s father passing away) until TODAY.

After my meeting with the principal I met with the other business teacher for a little while to talk about the advisory committee we’re putting together and the upcoming business education conference.  While doing all of this I started to feel the anxiety building up like it did at the beginning of this past school year.
Thinking about: what to do in the advisory meeting, what I’ll do that day between the first practice of cross country season (and what to do for practice, and what time) and the advisory meeting, if I’m going to have clothes that will fit for the conference in a couple weeks, if I can get student aid for my Masters program at UCM, and so on.

So I did what I did at the beginning of last school year.  Came home and curled up on my bed.  Em went home yesterday so I sent her a message and talked with her a little bit.

I guess we’ll see what happens and if I can start the year off without the need of anti-anxiety medication.

Was working on my computers last night and didn’t get to bed until around 1am.  Had practice this morning at 6:30….and now my butt is dragging the ground.

DOH…

Tonight I decided I’m naming my first son Tuff Thomas Reynolds.
In other news, the Centralia Basketball Tournament is going on this week.  Girls played tonight, and boys play tomorrow night at 6pm.

Lost my first game as a basketball coach 46-36 to Fulton.
We were up 21-18 at halftime then only scored 6 in the 3rd, to their 11 (and 11 to their 14 in the 4th).

I’m not good at losing, it’s hard not knowing how much of losing this game is my fault.

When I was a player I knew if I left it all on the floor, doing as much as I could. That doesn’t work with coaching. I’ve read that the best coaches don’t do much during a game, because the players should be ready.

Our players weren’t ready. This is my fault.

I also have a feeling that many didn’t leave it all on the court.
That’ll change on Wednesday.

Final score: 43-36

 If you’ve been teaching for a while you’ll probably look at the title of this post and chuckle out loud.  “Teaching is tough…No Duh!”

Until you become a teacher you have just don’t have any idea how much work is involved.
I’m lucky, I’ve got overall great students, great co-workers, and the support of a wonderful family.

Without all this I don’t know if I’d be able to survive 6 preps as a first year teacher.
I’m kind of worried about how I’m going to stay sane when basketball season starts, but I’m excited about getting to coach a sport that I enjoy as an athlete so much.